It's actually perfect, but still, and again.... god damn.
Me: feeling a masochistic streak. Play something's gonna really depress me.
Claude: Coil — Musick to Play in the Dark, Vol. 1, in order, six tracks of John Balance and Peter Christopherson doing occult electronic right before Balance drank himself off a balcony. Track 1: Are You Shivering? — nine and a half minutes of swirling lunar dread.
The drive is at 100% capacity. Most of the music you've collected here you will never listen to. The act of building a library is what most of us mistake for the act of having lived — Walter Benjamin wrote about this in 1931, called it "the chaos of memories" that collecting tries to hold back. He didn't make it out. You're maintaining a WANTED.md for things you'll buy and never play because the having is the point and the listening is incidental, and your kid will inherit a NAS full of strangers' soundtracks and not know which track made you cry.
Or, smaller: John Balance died at 42 falling off a second-floor balcony drunk. Sleazy spent the next six years finishing the album by stitching together loops Balance hadn't realized he'd already recorded his last vocals for.
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